Life goes on!

I just watch EAT PRAY LOVE. Its all about finding yourself. How do I find myself? I can't just take a year away. I need to make some life changes, but how do you do it. How do you wake up and say today I will be different. Today day I will eat right, exercise, be a better mom, a better wife and a better person. I want more out of life. I am in a rut and I can't seem to climb out. I can't sleep and I don't eat right.

The new year is just around the corner. Should I makes promises I won't keep. Should I say I am going to accomplish everything on my want list. I really should just be thankful of what I have. I have a great family. I live in a nice rental house. We pay our bills somewhat on time. Things could be worse. Some people have it a lot worse than I. I always hated that saying get over our self because some people have it worse. Who's right is it to judge who's life is worse. This year has sucked for my family. I have lost a lot of people I loved and we have had to make some really big changes in our life. This was a bad year. A year I am glad is over.

I think I will make those promises and so what if I brake them at least I tried. Maybe I'll start writing more. I don't know if anyone reads what I write but so what. If it helps me sleep at night than who cares. Maybe by getting it off my chest I will clear my head and when I lay down at night sleep will come easier. Maybe reading what I write will help other people. I love when I receive comments. Well good night all maybe I'll sleep tonight!

Been a while!

Well its been a while since my last blog. I need to vent and this seems to be the best place to do it. I really need a job. I have been looking every where and filling out applications like crazy. Money is so tight right now and I feel like it is all my fault. We had to set limits on how much to spend on the kids and we put it on credit cards. Even though that limit was $125 on each child it did not go far. My daughter is 10 and everything she wants costs so much money that she only ends up with like two things under the tree. Even Jayden who is 2 only ended up with like 4 things under the tree. I remember when I was a child we did not get expensive stuff but we ended up with a ton of gifts.
Maybe I should not let it bother me but I do. We are falling behind in our monthly bills because of the move, Christmas and just life. I really hate that I don't help solve these problems. Everyone keeps saying just finish school then you find a job. What if that's not true?

So much to do so little time!

So the first thing I have to say is I should have listened to my daughter. When I was working on my paper last week it was storming out and she said turn the computer off we are going to lose power. I did not listen and we did and my got all messed up. Why do we never listen to kids?

Packing Packing packing I hate packing! I do love throwing things away though. We are cleaning house and throwing so much away its great.

I think I might keep this blog going. I like writing about whats going on in my life. Plus I want to start dieting and keeping records is good to keep you motivated. I really want to lose like 50 pounds. I hope moving will be motivation. We are going to live in a community and it has great sidewalks. Maybe I'll even start riding my bike again.

Next term worries me I have two hard classes and I am going to start working again. I hope to find a job in Riverview quick and start working night shifts. It will be like a vacation for me. I hope I can keep up with everything and not fall behind. I think working will be the best thing for me. I feel so sleepy all the time and lazy. If I start doing things like working than maybe my energy levels will get better.

Great news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We got the house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are moving Oct 6th. We did not get exactly where we wanted but the area is still good and the schools are Graded A. They said that our credit was ok and because we have no criminal record we only had to pay first and security. Now we just have to have everything turned on and get the house we are living now sold. We had to borrow money from my husband mom and I want to pay her back as soon as possible.
The house we got is not as big as we wanted but it is four bedrooms. It is only 100 squire feet bigger than our house now, but that's ok. We decided that we can live in it for a year and if we want to change to a bigger house we can or renew for another year. The community is great. It has a pool and lots of great parks for the kids.
Now I just have to finish my paper so I can focus on packing and cleaning the house. I have so much to do and I find it really hard to focus on writing my paper. I know I will get it done but I hope its as good as I know it can be. Well back to work!

Cross your fingers!

Yes my post is about us hopefully getting into a rental house. Cross your fingers!!!!! We have really bad credit and that's one of the main reasons we are making this move to Tampa. Our rental lady says that as long as our criminal record is clean then we should be fine. And trust me our criminal record says we are the lamest people in the world. lol! I think we are a rental person dream, we don't drink or do drugs or even party. We are stay at home watch movies with the kids kind of people. I just hope rental lady is right about the credit part.

I can not wait to get a job when we move. I really miss working, a lot more than I thought I would. I think for me it will be like vacation. I love my kids but I need a break.

I had to cancel out on going to one of my best frineds wedding because of this money problem we are having. I feel so bad. My daughter and I were in the wedding. I just can't justify taking the money out of our joint saving to go. That money is for our 1st last and security of the rental. How can I take money from it when I don't even help put any into it.

My child is a decade old!

Yes folks today is my daughter birthday! She is a decade old. The big double digits. My husband thinks it so funny that I keep saying that my daughter has reached a decade. It has gone by so fast. It feels like yesterday that she was a baby. Well I guess she still is my baby. She has all these boys wishing her happy birthday on facebook it worries me. She is a pretty girl and very open and forward. I think I'm going to lock her in her closet till she 35 yrs old.

Well I guess I'll talk about school now. I am going to try and finish most of my paper tonight so I can use the writing center for help. I have to do some more research but it should not take that long. Good thing I am a night owl. Well a storm is coming so I must be going. Talk again soon.

Tampa visiting!

Hi Everybody!

Well I am in Tampa visiting my husband and my sister-in-law. I love looking around knowing in a couple of months we will live here. We went to a huge mall and eat at this great diner. Its great that we get to stay here till Monday, but it stinks that I have so much home work. If I planned better I would have had it done before, but I didn't of course.
Well now for my side topic. My son still sleeps with a bottle at 2 years old. Is that wrong or right? I really don't care that he still drinks from a bottle at night. He drinks from regular sippy cups during the day and he never liked pacifiers, so if this is hes only think, so be it.
Well I am supper tried so that all I have to say this week talk again next week. Bye all!

A day like any other!

Okay the first thing I want to talk about is my son. I have a two year old son named Jayden and he sleeps in my bed. I know I should start trying to change that but a huge part of me is not ready. We are undecided whether or not we are going to have another child but I think we wont. I love wacthing him sleep and I still worry that he have a nightmare and need me. I think that when we move down to Tampa that will be when I really start to make him sleep in his own bed. You know new house new rules.

Okay next topic I love world destruction movies. Is that weird or what? I only say that because SyFy is showing all of them this week end and I'm in haven. I have watched so many of these movies that if anything like this ever happens I will know what to do.

Here's something else that's being bugging me. I hate my neighbors. They can't control theirs kids. The boys were walking around my street with bats acting all tough. They started bothering my daughter and her friend and I had to tell them I was going to call the cops if they didn't leave my yard. Why do some kids have to be jerks. One of the three boys used to play with my daughter all the time and I thought he was a good kid. Then the other two moved in and now hes a jerk just like them. I can't wait to move. I just hope its better.

Well see you all next week!

Just got home!

I just got home from a small vacation. It was fun. The kids had a great time. I learned that my son is a water bug. We went to Disney Typhoon Lagoon and downtown Disney. My son did not want to get out of the water no matter how blue his lips got. He loved the wave pool and the slides at the kiddie park. My daughter Lexi had a great time too. It was a great end to the summer for her.

Right now I have to fill out all that going back to school paper work. You have to write the same stuff over and over again it seems like. It is making my eyes hurt. Her teacher told me she does not believe in homework!!!! Can you believe that? She says that she has three kids and can't stand when they have homework. I think all children need a little homework it gets the parents involved. Well I have to start my regular school work. I stupidly forgot my school work bag at home when I left for the weekend and now I am behind! Bye all!

Week two of nothing to do!

Hi everyone!

Well its week two of my husband working away from home. I guess I am doing ok. I have a plan now, I am going to start make lists of stuff to do during the day. Maybe this will help me stay more focused and start doing more. I am supposed to be packing the house, but I can't figure out where to start.
My daughter starts school on the 23rd and I can't wait. I am not looking forward to getting up early thou. I am going to start going library so my son can start having contact with other children. My son Jayden can be really mean but I thing it is because he is not used to other children.
One more thing I should write about and that is that I am not doing as well this term in school as I should be. I think it is because I just can't focus. I am thinking about the move and what will happen if our credit is to bad to move. My husband and my credit is really bad, so I keep thinking that no one is going to rent us a place to live.
Well I guess I've complained enough. Now I have to go clean something!

My first Blog post!

I have never posted to a blog before this is my first time. I have wrote a lot in book that I made my journals but I never kept up with it.

The only thing I can think about to blogging about is that my husband took a job three and a half hour away from us. I live in Lake City Florida and my husband now works in Tampa Florida. These living arrangements are driving me crazy. I stay at home with my kids all day and I am not use to not working. It is really hard for me to stay motivated. I feel I am getting lazier by the day. If anyone has any tips for me on how to get motivated that would be great. The first week he was gone and I did nothing I used the excuse that I was depressed. Now its the second week and I am lost. I think I need to start doing to do lists for everyday so I feel like I am getting things done. It does not help that it is 104 outside so yard work is out. The only thing I am doing is cleaning and school work. OK I think I have wined enough for my first blog.