I just watch EAT PRAY LOVE. Its all about finding yourself. How do I find myself? I can't just take a year away. I need to make some life changes, but how do you do it. How do you wake up and say today I will be different. Today day I will eat right, exercise, be a better mom, a better wife and a better person. I want more out of life. I am in a rut and I can't seem to climb out. I can't sleep and I don't eat right.
The new year is just around the corner. Should I makes promises I won't keep. Should I say I am going to accomplish everything on my want list. I really should just be thankful of what I have. I have a great family. I live in a nice rental house. We pay our bills somewhat on time. Things could be worse. Some people have it a lot worse than I. I always hated that saying get over our self because some people have it worse. Who's right is it to judge who's life is worse. This year has sucked for my family. I have lost a lot of people I loved and we have had to make some really big changes in our life. This was a bad year. A year I am glad is over.
I think I will make those promises and so what if I brake them at least I tried. Maybe I'll start writing more. I don't know if anyone reads what I write but so what. If it helps me sleep at night than who cares. Maybe by getting it off my chest I will clear my head and when I lay down at night sleep will come easier. Maybe reading what I write will help other people. I love when I receive comments. Well good night all maybe I'll sleep tonight!